I was born into this world in the year 1977. I guess I would have to say that I am not an easily understood person. I sometimes don't understand myself so I suppose I wouldn't expect that people should always understand me. I have learned through time that I am a walking contradiction at times. I say and feel two different things. I like a lot of old fashioned ways of life and a lot of new fashion ways of life. I like music from era's I was not born nor lived in. I have a big heart perhaps abnormal compared to most straight males and normal for most gay males. I am straight though. I don't do much but work and I know no one in Virginia so I tend to do a lot of things alone. I like to go to the movies and can admit to seeing movies that well would be considered a chick flick like Notebook. I like hero movies, but maybe for different reasons. I want to be some womans hero I suppose. To have a woman look at me that way that they do to the hero's in the movies. I want the impossible. The family in the black and white shows from my parents child hood and in repeats in mine. I want to go to sleep at night with someone there. Someone I can fall asleep holding who wants to hold me. Someone who in the middle of the night when my arm is hurting and I turn over will put there arms around me till there arm hurts and they turn over and I can hold them. I wanna come home from work with the anticipation of knowing that she's there and if I have kids that they are there. I wanna turn on the TV and have them say that there has been a sudden increase around the world of people who are suddenly thinking about more then thereselves. Men who buy flowers not for holidays or occasions but just because and woman that like wearing dresses to go out. I want to hear that we've created a cure for cancer and Aids and not another pill to give men hardons. I wanna see the percentage of drug use go down along with the percentage of single parents. I wanna see people take a step back for a moment and see themselves through someone elses eyes. I want people to believe that love is more then just a box of candies and flowers in February. I want kids to grow up seeing what true love is as they watch there parents and be able to say when they get older that they find the same love that there parents have. I want to lose weight and keep it off. I want a six pack and not the kind you drink. I want to lose my bad habits and get good ones. I want to see you smile when you pass me in the streets as long as your not stalking me. I'd like to be at peace with my past. I want a certain someone to know that I'm truley sorry for the way things turned out. I want to learn to let go. I want to know that I'm not alone. I want to know what real love feels like so I can know that it wasn't there in the past and then maybe it would make sense. And last but most importantly I want to say Hi. How are you today?